Here and Now...

We go through life looking at our past and looking what we can do to change in the future, but I think we lose focus about the present--the here and now. I never really thought about the present until one of my coworkers brought up this philosophy. Over this past year, I have had the worst year ever. I didn't walk into that dream teaching job I hope I would have gotten if I worked hard for 4.5 years and graduate. My car was hit by a drunk driver while I was sitting inside a friend's house waiting to take her out for errands. I'm a good person and all this happens to me; it made me doubt everything. What good is it to work hard and be good? In a sense, I kind of did give up. Luckily, I am surrounded with good people who continue to remind me of who I am. I started to realize that things may not work out now and some things are out of your control. I'm not saying I've decided that I will just go with the flow in my life, but what I am saying is that I intend to focus on the here and now because that is all I have control over; this is where I can make choices. I'm alive. I'm breathing. I'm present. As long as I am grateful for the here and now, the outlook of my future will be bright.